an overwhelm of emotion
such high concentration,
viciously replacing every
pleasant thing about you
transforming it into
something so ugly.
anger
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inan overwhelm of emotion
such high concentration,
viciously replacing every
pleasant thing about you
transforming it into
something so ugly.
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ina rush of anger
my blood boiling,
head pounding now
no place to escape
dizziness
shaking
distractions..
no, come back- focus
don’t drop
calm, hold it
turn the anger into tears
but no,
no escape
not even for tears
hold it..
keep them in
swallow.
breathe.
let the emotions fuse
sizzle out
let them free
pain
smack yourself in the head
a few times till you’re safe
from your thoughts.
stop.
breathe.
smile
yes, you’re happy again- remember?
no room for your anger
impatience, hurt, pain or upset
there’s no place
no escape
so transform them.
wait till the moment returns
to fill you with such loathe
then find your own solace
and let it free
alone
away from the world.
goodbye
25 Tuesday Feb 2014
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dead, death, emotional, heart, heartbroken, LOOOL THIS IS A BALL OF CHEESE plz forgive me for this rubbish but yeah im tryna get back into writing again lol clearly not working so embarrassing omg, love, me, partner, relationship, sad, words, writing, you
never again will I smell your scent
nor hold you close —
my skin against yours.
never again will I feel your lips
pressed against my forehead
as you console me and tell me
it’ll be alright.
your whispers I remember,
so clearly; truthfully
reminding me, of all that I meant.
we lasted no longer
than a short moment of time
and had I known you were
fighting inside for your life
each moment, perhaps
I would have cherished even more
but for now, my loved one
it is the end of us;
no amount of prayers
will ever bring you back
but know that my love for you
could have never equated to yours
but I will always love you–
forever and beyond
22 Saturday Feb 2014
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inI need life to fast forward 3 months.
plz.
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I hate being in this state.
Stuck.
the state of being stuck.
of not know what to do, where to go, where to search, what to think, what to write.
it’s utter confusion. filled with a load of empty but powerful frustrations that makes me want to jump out of the situation. to be PULLED out.
I’m STUCK. STUCK.,
Everything is just STUCK.
and my mind wanders off to places that are beyond unnecessary and FAZOOL and that’s how I know I’m just a ball of god knows what kind of nothingness.
urg none of that made sense. yh it’s not meant to.
21 Friday Feb 2014
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best friend, i love you so much you don't understand, i wish you were here, my habibty forever and ever, rk, we need to hug
best friend means more than the world to me.
you take up my whole heart and I will love you forever, inshaAllah. ❤
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12 weeks I tell myself over and over..just 12, assignments, I have never felt so crap and confused in my life, i just can't, patience, personal, uni
and just like everything else,
this too, shall pass.
20 Thursday Feb 2014
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inAlhamdulilah.
My Lord is the Most Merciful,
the Most Kind and Generous
He is my Protector, and all my affairs
are with Him.
All Praise be to Him, Lord of the Universe.
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how do I say, ‘she’s just not good enough’ to the father of the girl?
I don’t, and end up saying, ‘akh, I do not wish to take this further, barakAllahufeek’.
———
Strangely, to me
this puts peace in my heart
saves me from
having to make
a lifelong decision
in the span of
a day
protects me from
what I was never meant to see
which may just have been
worse for me
At least it’s not I
who carries the burden
knowing that I may have
wronged myself
for not obeying my Lord
to the best of my ability
but rather it was
my Most Merciful Rabb
who knows what is right
and what’s wrong for me
who frees me from
my responsibilities
and grants me peace
that a decision has been made
straight from His hands
and never being a decision that
was ever mine.